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Cus Youtube is sooo fucktard and doesn't let me upload this in my channel you now have an exclusive video to watch xP. This is a tribute yo my BFF's.

Musics:
Best Friends- Toybox
Bonamana- SuJu
Jojo- SHINee
Replay- SHINee
Mocking Bird- Eminem
Thunder- Boys like girls

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The Ghost of You

As usual, I waked up streched myself looked through the window and smiled.
"Good Morning" I said to you, without getting a feedback, as usual too. We got ready, went upstairs, took breakfast and went straight to the car. We arrived late to school, again, the teacher didn't bother complaining so we just sat in out places, next to eachother, without a sound.
In the middle ofone class I started talking a bit to you "Look at ____ her dress doesn't suit her at all don'tcha think?" you didn't answer. Apparently I had talked too loud cus the whole class turned around to face me and started saying things like "Poor girl.." "she doesn't know what she's saying" the teacher had had enough and said out loud "Shut up".
It was lunch time, you were waiting for me outside the lockerrooms.
"You're so lazy.. you never make PE class" I said playfully and you smiled, just a bit, the hallway was starring at us again. You know that makes me upset.. we aren't that weird.. I think...
We met my BF and went to have lunch, I still don't know why she didn't talk to you, you are very sweet.
The whole day passed by, and still you didn't said a thing. we got back home... Since that day a lot has changed. Remember the car accident? We were returning from our cousin's house and mom crushed the car... After that they never hugged you or even talked to you again... maybe they don't remember you or something.

Well we've already recap all our stuff haven't we? Great. Have you wrote it down? Thanks...
You know.. If ghost appeard on photos I'd take one with you everyday... Goodnight...

The Days I Called you a Friend

You blame me of not wanting
But you don't want it too
You whine cus I'm not there
Bus is there is who?
You blame me of not answering
Are you even listening to me?
You blame me of hidding the truth
When it's you who's lieing to me!

You get mad when I yell to you
Now who's the one who's shouting?
You say I don't pay attention to you
Do you even know my name?
You complain that we are different
I never asked to be with you
There goes the times when everything was ok
Here rest the days I called you my friend

Poems for my Big Sis

My Big Sis is there
She's standing in the grave
For me is hard to think
This was the place we played
Hidding from our parents
Pretend we were someone else
Now that's just memories
That she's remembering to herself
She still asks God why
She asks him why I'm not there
He never bothered to tell her
He doesn't seem to care
But it's a sad story I know
She doesn't remeber at all
Dad was shouting at me
While she was with her friend at the mall
Dad said I wasn't worth it
He said he wished I wasn't alive
I tried to escape from him
But he cut my troath with a knife
Then when she came back
She saw me dead on the floor
She started crying, she started screaming
She just ran away through the door
I can still hear her sobbing
She did it during days
Mom and Dad din't care at all
They Never did it anyways
Big Sis I'm still there
I'm just hidding from you
Maybe one dau you'll find me
And we'll do the thing we still do
Cus I still peek through your door at night
I'm still sleeping at your side
Big Sis can you hear me?
I'm playing you a lullaby
Big Sis do you still love me?
Please Big Sis don't you cry
I know this distance seems bigger everyday
But everything's gonna be alright
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Hey Big Sis how are you doing?
I wish that you're OK
I'm writting here to say you
That I miss you everyday
I know time has passed by
How much has been since I wrote?
I don't know Big Sis i really don't
Cus all I know is that I'm alone
Remember when we were kids
And we runned in the backyard?
I was afraid I would get lost
So I've never left you from the start
I miss the Halloween day
Thank God one's comming soon
Maybe we can dress up again as wolves
And howl together at the moon
I'm here thinking Big Sis...
Do you have nightmares with that day?
That one when we came back from school
And Mom and Dad broke us away
I was so young Big Sis
Why did they did that to us?
Sometimes I think they had envy
Cus they couldn't be together without making a fuss
I growed up Big Sis I did
I did it in this country house
People here think I'm strange
That I'm depressed all because
I talk to you when I'm alone
So you see it's every time
These people, they don't know you
They can't imagine how you're kind
Big Sis can you tell me
Have you already become a star?
I'm asking that cus Big Sis
I still play that old guitar
Sometimes I sing our songs
Yes, I remember them all
Those we made on the playground
Even the ones you sai that were small
Big Sis I have to write fast
My new Dad is almost here
And you know Big Sis
He always comes smelling like beer
He doesn't like when I write to you
Maybe yours don't like it too
Remember when we found each other
And I tried to run away with you?
The next day I couldn't move
I got all beated up by Dad
I thought he wanted me to be happy
But he just wants me to be sad
Big Sis I have to be fast
Dad found out I'm writing to you
He's getting his belt off
I don't know if I'll make it through
If I do Big Sis, I promisse
That I'll write to you soon
I'll throw this letter to Mike
You know, I think he likes you
Now I really have to go
Dad's already in my room
Don't ever forget I love you
And Big Sis... I'll write you soon